Duffy's so in my list at the moment. Love her "Stepping stone" and "Rain on your parade".
Just this morning, there's this topic highly discussed on; "Studying cause children to become anti-social, is it true?"
Somewhat partially. I forgotten before this how I used to hang out a lot with everyone. Back then when there's wasn't this tool called broadband; I often spend my days on my bicycle be day or shine. I met a few gang and we hanged out. But until I met this thing call, "STUDY" in highschool. =/ My days were gone and I replied less to those who asked me out often. Eventually I became anti-social.
But who am I to blame on studies? =/ The other part needs me to keep in touch with people.
Change is something that happens often. It's difficult when you've grown attached to something and there's somehow a need of change. Practice all in moderation would be the best advice to allow change to take place without much resentment towards it.
I had a lot of things that changed in my life since the last two years. Everything just whirled past me like some typhoon. There were generally many unhappy things that has happened but there were those happy moments that pulled me through all that. The most important aspect I learnt from this phase is friendship.
There were happy things and sad things that went to and fro during these two years. I've lost a very important friend and thus it led me into depression which went unnoticed. But of course through this, it was somewhat like a trial and I gain another new friendship out of this.
When I entered Form 6, my first year was stuck in my own circle because my class was generally small. I got busy with school. There were even more things that have happened. And each time I see a new side about other people.
The most important aspect was, those that I thought was close to me didn't seem that close anymore. And those that weren't close seemingly were the ones who really helped me pull through all these time. And that itself is change. Through the up and downs I have to admit I was hurt by it too. But pointless lah, want waste energy and time for these dramas for what? Also won't win noble prize one lah.
Friends do change and it's somewhat scary. I remembered how my friend commented how I've changed. But she still accepted me regardlessly. And then when my friends change, I realize we didn't have much in common anymore. It turns ugly at times but nevermind lah, since still so young just anggap like kacang lupakan kulit.
But eventually during the last minute, I got to know more about others. And this helped me realized how I was able to gain trust from people. I learnt something about myself. I maybe immature in dealing with situations because I do not have much life experiences yet but I can be mature when it comes to dealing with people's inner heart. =) That's something I have confidence.
Other than that, there are also people around who would diss you and pull down your confidence especially when you're vunerable. There are people out there and it could be because of misunderstanding or jealousy. I learnt quite a lot from going through that. And I believe my mentality has become somewhat stronger. I don't need people to see my future for me or people to affect my feelings. Because this is my life and only I have the ability to pave my way. Whether I judge, respect and care about others is my decision alone and not someone to control. This is one great advice I would like to thank an old man for giving me =).
So many positives and negatives, eventually things will work out also lah. I just graduated from Form 6 after all. I might work and we'll all part ways eventually. But the magic to friendship is even though that happens, we'll still be connected in a bond that we both trust in. I think I've found them all because of all these trials that I've gone through. I thank God to have friends I could count on.
That's my conclusion of this phase life. I'm looking forward to a new phase!
Forgot to add this; guess I got too overemotional with the rant above <_<:
P.S: Sorry if my actions hurt someone directly or indirectly. I've had issues in my life, so I'm somewhat a bit difficult to handle. Nevertheless, thanks to all my friends for being there for me. There'll always be a place in my heart for you guys. Okay, it's this short or it's going to sound gay.
Wangchoi's my most treasured mixed Basenji. She has an easily excited cute personality with a cool demanour at times. However, if there's more than anything she hates other than cats and little defenseless kittens, it's definitely Indians.
She's racist to the darker tone colour and someone experienced it first hand before and came out unharmed to tell it with a laugh a.k.a Vinothini. But as much as she hates Indians, why are all her lovers BLACK DOGS?! *hovers in a corner and goes into depression mood*
I had a musing last night when I came across a blog entry which was talking about WTO and their plan to set up a college somewhere in Singapore.
Except, WTO doesn't stand for World Trade Organisation but INSTEAD:
W: WORLD T: TOILET O: ORGANISATION
WTF? There's such a thing? Google it up for yourselves if you're interested in their agenda of GLOBAL campaign about toilet sanitation. No kidding.
Now according to this article, WTO has set up the World's FIRST Toilet College somewhere based in Singapore.
Being curious as always, I asked a few fellow Singaporean friends whether they've heard of it cause it's seriously one hell of a joke to me. Apparently, after some convincing and googling, Jing Yi was in AWED shocked to learn that this VERY SAME Toilet College which was founded since way back in 2001 has been using the classrooms[?] at her Polythenic. I was gaping and took my words back and mentally made plans to visit that college when I get the chance to come down to Singapore next time.
I wonder if their seats in class were made of toilet seats as well?
I think I was horny but it could be plain animal abuse, cause I'm PRETTY SURE I had a nightmare of hamsters going at it. Must be something I watched last night. Don't ask.
A classmate of mine once said, you'll be horny during the first 2 weeks before period. Guess her theory was proven right about being horny; hornying over Eric Northman of True Blood and his HAWTNESS. And 7 hours later after this morning, I had sufficient enough of blood to feed a dead vampire.
PMS symptoms differ from one girl to another but they do have one thing in common: Mood Swings like what I just demostrate to my brother early this morning when he decided to take his T-Shirt from my room by waking me up.
So if you don't want to get yelled at, it's best you avoid girls with raging temper during their PMS-ing period. It'll be in your best interests to avoid any damaging any "goods". Or else you better be prepared both mentally...and physically.
18 Years Worth of Happiness DOWNED by Misery? Why waste it? "If you see my face I hope it gives you HELL!"
Thursday, September 24, 2009
comments (0)
Reflecting past my 18 years walking, crawling, shooking and whatever actions you can think of on earth, it never came to my realization how honestly FAT I was, or in that manner CARED of my own weight. Now don't get me wrong, I know I'm fat but in comparison, I felt I was still alive and kicking, so it didn't matter. Everyone around me wasn't really pressuring me either. I had NOT RIVALS OF MY SIZE!
I had good food. Home-cooked food mind you. I was eating swell! Healthy as ever. But I guess it got overboard when I consumed too much? Or should I say, consume more than my metabolism rate could take cause I swear my cousins are eating WAY more than an average teenager and they're as skinny as skin and bones.
In school, there were great friends around me. They accepted me for who I was and not what I looked. And I loved all of them for that. Goes to show sometimes Judgement can be painful when it comes from your own friends. It could be a positive and negative both ways but I think I'll have it all taken positively. Well, slowly things got out of hand and there's a need of change. As much as it's unfair to eat only twice a day while others are eating 3 meals a day or 5.
So I I started working out, gave up, working out, gave up and then GOT REALLY serious when a Pakistan asshole grace his presence by insulting me. That got me pretty bad, hurt like fuck [dare I say the word? I just did]. And off I shed 10kg one shot. Good friends have been supportive. True friends continue the encourage. My family couldn't be any happier!
Getting less sleep wasn't much of a problem. I'm moving more, my lung capacity has increased and so did my endurance. And then my weekly routine began to gradually change to climbing up Batu Caves. 272 steps worth of hell. And it'll all go down the drain in the end when I ate again.
I'm nearly 19 years old now, and I can barely find a good shirt that could fit me properly or a dress at that. Honestly, it saddens me. But who give a care if those statements get flushed down the drain in 5 years time?
I'm kinda happy with my lifestyle and the way I am. I enjoy nature, love exploring and good humor. Protocols and routine just ain't my thing. Enjoy being with my friends as well and my family the most. The last thing I want from everything after I shed these pounds are my friends ever changing on me. When that happens the painful part will be when I have to let go of them. Over this year I've meet and made some good new friends from various ways.
Not going to give up yet! I still want to be there for my friends' weddings when we can drive the groom and his brothers crazy! I still want to be alive for every moment when we all grow old and laugh with out teeth all fallen out.
It has been brought to my attention that, there's been trouble where comments are not being displayed. *cuts the whole crappy tone*
Mae complained she couldn't find her comment which she posted a while ago or the time way back when I posted another thing. So I advise you guys to use the chatbox beside this blog to post up your comments cause seriously I can't find any of your comments on my authorisation list or anywhere. =( I believe it has something to do with template's coding. I don't know how to fix it so I'm not planning to do it anytime soon. On the other hand, please stop commenting directly to the posts and instead use the chatbox beside for now until I fix this problem, probably next year.
=) Thank you for telling me!
